Dear Tisoy,
i was seven, you were nine. you were my first crush.
i doodled two stick figures holding hands and named it after me and you.
tapos nakita ng nanay ko, kinurot ako sa singit kasi ang
bata bata ko pa lang daw malandi na ako…”
Dear Classm8,
you were such a dufus. i didnt really like you. but you were my
first dance. and the first boy to put his arms around me. too bad i forgot
your last name, i was gonna google you out of curiousity. just wanna see
if you still sport the same dufus smile. and kung naayos ba ung lubak sa ngipin mo…
Dear MMs,
i remember the time when you punched Evil One (your bestfriend)
because he wont quit teasing me. our teacher made you stood up
and you took it like a man. you were my hero. you won me over.
sayang di mo ko nilagawan, sinagot sna kita…
Dear Evil One,
you were one of the reason i wanted to quit school. you bullied me too much.
then at 1st year high, you sent me a love letter. and confessed that you really just
like me alot. and that you wanted to share lunch with me. i could never want you.
im sorry. there was too much hate build up inside. i could not date an enemy.
kursunada ko yung bestfriend mo….
Dear Brown Eyes,
the chemistry in us was so explosive we could have burned the whole place..
i miss you. the long walk, endless talk. and our dates.
too bad you were sexually confused.
sometimes youre a boy, but sometimes youre a girl too.
i thought i was doing the world a favor, i thought i can make a man out of you..
i realized we have alot in common… kaso pati ba nmn c Enrico Crush mo din?
bkla ka.. bkla ka pa din bah..? sayang ka ang gwapo mo pa nmn ….
Dear Ben Adams,
and i still regret that i did’nt go out with you even if you asked me
three times in a row.. what was i thinking? maybe i was afraid you could
manipulate me coz i like you too much… when you finally admit that
you love me, i was already commited to someonelse.. coz i got tired waiting for you.
if i can turn back time, i would have let you harass and exploit me a little bit.
sna ikaw na lang unang nakahalik skin…
Dear Jomari,
thank you for making my “first kiss” so unforgettable.
your thin lips sent shivers all over my body. you were a great boyfriend.
a great kisser too.. everyonelse was jealous when i had you
or shall i say when you had me… but third date came, and you wanted to
“take me home” like a chinese takeout and i didnt know if i really loved you
enough to give it to you, so i didnt..kinilig lang cguro tlg ko kc varcity player ka..
Dear Three Inch,
my first everything. i let you consume the best of me, i thought we could make it..
at first we were even planning to get married but then we started to grew apart then
after that my worst memories were all about you.
cos we were each other’s experimental disaster.
our love story gone bad was the best reminder that
some dreams do not come true, that in
the long run it simply becomes nightmares.
i hurt you, you hurt me. i think thats all we ever did.
sana hindi na lang naging tayo edi
sana bestfriend pa din kita…
Dear Black Dude,
you didnt have to knelt down and embarass yourself just to ask me out.
and you didnt have to blackmail me either, telling everyone that im a racist
because i didnt wanna hang out with you.
wala lang tlgng spark sa mga mata ko
pag nakikita kita.yun lang yun. nothing racial about it.
Dear Snowman,
so i admit that i only needed a ride home because i couldnt drive in the snow.
but then i began to like you. and our trip to wenatche made me like you hell of a lot more.
too bad you wanted more than i was willing to give you..
so possesive and manipulative. you caught me in a bad time,
i was enjoying my freedom and you wanted to choke me with your love. not a good combination.
i still have the mixtape you gave me, although i dont listen to it anymore.
sana matuto kang magmahal ng tama lang…
Dear Kuneho,
i love him. you love her. but were together because they dont care about us.
normally i would just lit a cig for a week but then we just kept on sneaking out for one,
i extended because i wanted to be with you. your company made
me feel less lonely. i think we were just comforting each other. we were healing so
when they come back they can hurt us again. how have you been?. i finally got over the jerk who i was with,
hope you can get over her too..
isang tanong lang.. “bakit kung magsalita ka, palaging pabulong?”
Dear Instik,
so far, you are the smartest guy ive ever gone out with.
i wanted to just lick your brains out. the thought of you still
puts a smile across my face. you were my boy toy. i didnt exactly
treated you seriously coz the fact that you were three years younger.
you were cute. i bet you still are.
sana magtagpo uli landas naten pag bente y uno ka na,
para sa susunod makapasok ka na din sa casino…
Dear Player,
i like how you say my name. the way you roll your tounge out for
R words. that was sexy.. outback steak,champagne.that was really generous and smooth.
you know how to make women feel beautiful.i just wished your male ego wasnt so high.
sometimes all i needed to hear was for you to say “i’m sorry”
instead of your constant i loveyou’s . besides that,you had lots of girl friends and ex’s flying around.
your charisma was both a blessing and a curse.at least for me..
i knew i couldnt have you just for myself.
“Everyonelse’s loves you”. sorry, but i needed exclusivity…
“ano bang merun ka at lahat sila naiinlove sayo?”
Dear Hangin,
maybe it was the way you neatly presented yourself through chat, that fooled me. i thought you were sweet, funny and level headed. but when we finally met , youre exactly the opposite of everything you promised you’d be. i know i wasnt my best self either but atleast i wasnt bragging stuff like you do. everything was all about you. or how popular your clan is.
rememeber self praise is no praise at all..oh but wait i will have to give you a credit over something youve won the ” Worst Kisser” Award. Congratulations!! sinayang ko panahon ko sayo…
Dear Bigmac,
i love your innocence. i still do. thats what drew me closer. i dont know how but
you managed to remove the barricade i put around my heart just so i wont be hurt again.
stone by stone, brick by brick you made it stumble upon your feet. you did it.
you won my heart. bacause you allow me to be myself.
remember the time when i told you my story and you just held and let me cry?
no guy has ever done anything like that to me.
and never did i felt so vulnerable and helpless yet so comfortably warm, tucked inside your arms.
sorry for the times i unintentionally hurt you. or i didnt seem to care at all.
thank you for your unconditional love.i will always be a neophyte
but with your faith and innocence, you make me feel na “Mahal pa din ako ni God kahit minsan salbahe ako…”
